So i was cleaning the house and everything when i found my hubbys old phone. Which made me remember an old photo of us that i deleted and wanted hack. He had this phone in june. When we had a couple months of seperation. (I am aware of him sexting other women, etc. I did my own thing aswell considering we were done). Well i go and look through his phone trying to find it. We got back together around july. I found nudes of a female in june around the end of the breakup. It tore me up. Idk why. I did my own thing too. Right? I shouldnt be upset. Right? It broke me. I hate my body. I find my body and my gender (my personal gender not all women) disgusting because of it. I saw her vagina, boobs, etc.... my self esteem is gone. I wanna die and he doesnt fully understand and im womdering if i should leave... we havnt had sex since then because i know ill think about it during sex. Im ruined girls😭