My husband and I have been really at each other here lately. And by lately I mean like the past 3 years. We had such a great relationship when we were dating then we got married aaaaaand he isn’t the man I Thought I was marring. I feel really alone. I never get help he’s always outside working on his trucks (he builds custom trucks on the side from his day job) I work full time out side of the house, I am a full time student, we have a two year old and we are in our first round of Femara TTC #2. I’m honestly at a point where I want to stop trying if I don’t get pregnant this round. In a joined effort with his parent (we don’t live close to my family and there are times where he is so mean [verbally] that I have to get our daughter and leave so I go there) we got him to agree to marriage counseling. We went to ONE session. He barely participated but to bring up all of my negatives (he actually made me cry at one point) but it felt good for me to tell him how I was feeling knowing he couldn’t fly off the handle or get up and leave. Well he has decided that he didn’t like the guy we went to and because of the American health system, marriage counseling is seen as nonessential therefore all of our visits are out of pocket. It’s $85 a visit which is not a problem for us. We make a lot of money and $85 every two weeks or once a month is zero issue in reality. However my husband acts like the guys charging $10,000 a visit. So needless to say he doesn’t want to go back and won’t even entertain the idea of finding someone else. I feel like he’s putting a small amount of money over our marriage and I’m at my end. He knew we needed to talk this out and now I see he isn’t willing to do what it takes to keep us together. Today he got home from a business trip and immediately was irritated that I didn’t shovel the drive way since I was off today. Ok my bad I was busy doing homework, cleaning the house, doing laundry, and caring for our toddler how dare I not shovel the snow out of our drive way. No one asked him to do it right this secondly either. You could still pull into it just fine. No hi no kiss just an unreal attitude. He’s been home almost an hour and I haven’t seen him other than his walk from our front door to our back door. I had dinner ready and waiting knowing that he had been in a car for the past 3 hours he didn’t even acknowledge that. I just don’t know what to do anymore.