Let me give you a quick background rundown:

When I was around 13/14 I started my period for the first time, because I’ve always been a wuss for pain, I went straight on the pull the following week as we used to get given stuff like that from our school. Fast-forward to my last year of high school, and I switched to the depo injection as I have always had a terrible way of forgetting to take tablets🤦🏻‍♀️ I didn’t come off the depo then until I was 19 and my partner at the time wanted us to start trying (blessing in disguise, it didn’t happen and he left with a new baby already on the way).

I’m 22 in june, have never been pregnant and have always felt like I’m not a “real woman” as I’m watching people younger than me having multiple kids and I haven’t managed even a pregnancy scare🤷🏻‍♀️ (can’t explain it)

Well for over a week now I’ve been getting these symptoms:

Carpel tunnel syndrome

Nausea

Vomiting

Diarrhoea/constipation

Large amount of white cm mostly watery

Cramping

Bloating

Aching boobs

Had what could have been implantation bleeding as it was vvv light and more of a brownish colour that lasted just over a day but was only spotting.

Extremely tired all the time

And this weird feeling where I feel like I’m severely hungry but as soon as I start eating I feel nautilus,

I usually consume a lot of caffeinated drinks but have gone right off them.

I’m crying easier than usual (for example: I broke down during the Anne frank movie in the first 10mins all because she left her cat behind and I thought about who was feeding it🤦🏻‍♀️)

Getting really angry/irritable really easy with my partner

CLINGY cats who are always watching me, and for my Tom cat this is normal in moderation but my other cat it’s totally unusual, and she’s been trying to clean my hair🤷🏻‍♀️😂

Bit of “baby brain” forgetfulness

Getting out of breath walking to the top of my street

Severe dry mouth and inflamed gums

Probs more that I’m missing🤷🏻‍♀️

Due to being in the depo and pull for so long, I’ve never had a “normal” period as of yet, so can’t use my last period to track my ovulation as I can barely remember when my last period ended let alone started and I’ve never figured out the length of my cycle. I’ve done two tests so far but both look negative, for bloods on Tuesday as went to the doctors because I felt really groggy and after all their testing they said my oxegyn and heart rate was fine and stuff?

I don’t want to get my hopes up as my doctors told me due to all the complications I’ve had I probably won’t have children. But never tested to be clear.

CAN ANYONE HELP, IM LOSING MY MIND😭