So yesterday I had a 3D ultrasound, baby didn’t want to cooperate so sadly I have to go back and reschedule. I was fine yesterday until I had dinner with my sister in law. We started talking about our babies who will be born 2 months apart from each other and to make it short, she was basically saying how she thinks I need an epidural because I can’t handle the pain. So that ticked me off kind of the whole night and later on I felt kind of sad about my relationship with my SO. I feel like I’m showing and giving more affection. We talked about it and he said its not true. I think I’m starting to over think things because now I can’t stop crying and I’m just upset about everything. I’m upset about how I feel I may not be a good mother, how I probably won’t be able to handle the contractions, how I feel like I show more love towards my SO, how I’m scared people will judge me on how I parent, everything. I even cried in the shower.. which I never do. I just feel numb and I know it’s not good for the baby. I’m 33 weeks and idk I just feel sad since last night. It’s just not like me.