Venting

Has your anxiety ever made you feel like you’re worthless? Before I got pregnant I never ate breakfast so I kept it like that until I started getting really anxious in the mornings & I couldn’t control it & it made me get anxiety attacks. I then realized it was because I wasn’t eating breakfast but by then I was already really afraid of my panic attacks and I started avoiding situations and places incase I got one. On my boyfriends bday I had a really bad headache so I didn’t see him, today I was planning on going somewhere with him and facing my fears until his mom texted me saying she was going to make him a bday dinner & now I feel even more pressure and shittier about myself for being scared to go & ending up having a panic attack infront of everyone that’s there. I feel so shitty that I asked him if he wanted to break up. We have a kid on the way & I remember this is all I used to dream about having a kid with the person I love but now I feel like he’s regretting getting me pregnant and then there’s me, that all I ever wanted was a family together