The guy I was with for some time, cheated on me and he never told me, the doctor told me.

I’m now 11 weeks pregnant and I fight with him every single day because he says I won’t let the past go; i want to let the past go so badly but the lies were so big and went on for so long to the point where all my trust in him became nonexistent, I became hopeless in him.

He says he’s changing even though I can’t tell, but his mindset has changed & he’ll make it up to me but I’m so bloody hurt, the memories are like maggots scavenging away at open wounds. I can’t fully describe what I feel but it’s evil.

I feel so helpless, & I don’t even know if the STI he gave me went away yet, but according to doctors it did, we’ll see. & if I do stay with him how am I ever going to make love to him again knowing that his raw dick went just about everywhere.

I am also upset that the possibility of having a broken family is already at large. I never imagined raising a child by myself, I always pictured mom, dad, and baby.

I’ve been trying to pray a lot but the pain is unlike anything I have ever felt in this world. Is this what hell is like?? Because it feels so close to the lowest of lows. 💔 I pray no other woman ever feel what I’m feeling, it’s awful.