I need to get this off my chest (why I’m posting anonymously). I’m so exhausted. I’m tired of fighting the urge to not be sad and to enjoy life. I struggle everyday with depression and anxiety with no medication. Everyday I want to feel something other than the constant paranoia or the fact that I feel like I’m drowning and struggling to get to the surface of this “ocean”. It’s so dark and endless. I know it won’t solve anything but I have the urge to cut everyday. I want to so bad to let this silent scream out. Sometimes I want to take it further than that...life hasn’t been fair to me, but I guess it isn’t for anyone....I hate feeling numb like this.