I can’t forgive myself and I know I deserve it. I really hate myself now. I became pregnant with no money or good job. I was ashamed and afraid of others opinions. My boyfriend kept pointing to abortion. I told my mother and she told my dad who also pushed abortion. I knew it wasn’t just by god and I still did it. I wanted to believe so badly abortion actually wasn’t bad and that it would fix my problems. I was so wrong. I threw away my first pregnancy... and I go online and people say “baby killers are going to hell” etc. I must be sick for thinking it would be okay. I am scared for my future now