Feeling down! ☹️

Caitlin • 🧢👶 11.22.12 💏 3.15.14 🎀 👶 6.17.19

On Tuesday I’ll be 18 weeks pregnant but I so worried I had a missed miscarriage. I have not gained any weight although, I started out very high at 195 so maybe that is good. But I have no symptoms (except leaking breasts) and no fetal movement yet. I feel like the baby is not there and I don’t know what to do. I have not had a sonogram since week 8, just ultrasounds which always scare me because it takes the doctor forever to find the heartbeat. If I did have a missed miscarriage would I still have a positive pregnancy test and would I still have colostrum leaking?