After years of celibacy, my boyfriend and I fell weak to sexual temptation. We couldn't even go through with the act completely, stopped, and set up barriers to prevent ourselves from being in that situation again. Along with repenting. A few weeks later we found out we were expecting. My boyfriend has been so positive saying that it was a blessing from the Lord and even proposed so we can raise the child the way God intended. To be honest I have found it very difficult to share in his joy. I feel like I can't even call myself a Christian anymore. I've always wanted to live to a higher standard and be everything that God called me to be but I feel like nothing but a hypocrite now. By faith I believe that God has forgiven me but I can't come to forgive myself. I haven't told anyone other than the doctors about my pregnancy because I don't want to disappoint anyone. Any words of advice? Everyday is full of so much grief and I just want to get back to seeking God with my whole heart and to embrace my child.