I have had these "future dreams" for years. Knowing when people would get pregnant and I'd know the gender/birth month. Even had some about myself and meeting my current husband. At the time I didn't realize, but once I meet him all of the dreams stopped. Specially my reoccurring dreams of my future children.

Maybe, it's all confidence? But, why would a small child dream of a grown man they never met from another country? Anyways, I started having these dreams again. I can remember every small detail, touch, smell and taste everything.

My husband and I decided beginning of this year we would try for a baby. Start a fertility program as I have Pcos; one of my ovaries has a rather large cyst sitting on it. Doctors told me I may need to get it removed(ovary). So it's been a long and stressful month. He works two weeks of the month away. In those two weeks is my highest ovulation day. So, we feel like maybe not this month but next.

My dreams from the past my first child was born on my mothers birthday. which was November 10th. I thought it was kind of funny if we did get pregnant in February. Our child will be born in November. The last time I had this dream was in 2015. Now I've been sick with the flu this past week; I keep having a repeating dream that I take a test before my husband returns. It's a weird blurred positive sign(clear blue test). I would try to go to the doctors but, it was like everyone else was getting assisted before me. Even though I was there first. I would wake up feeling disappointed; not knowing if I was or not.

I've been contemplating about taking the test but, waiting till the date like my dream. i'm scared of this dream getting my hopes up just to be crushed. Specially my husband who has had a complete change of heart about having a baby. We had a miscarriage early summer of last year. He was completely crushed and had been so excited about the idea being a father.

This post was mainly made as rant and to see if anyone else had "future dreams " as well. Did they come true for you? Or only others? Maybe all the baby talk and the memories of our unborn child messing with my feverish dreams.

-Jai