I had an early miscarriage September 20,2018 despite the pain we continued trying.... Now I’m sitting here driving myself literally insane taking test after test after test because my period is 8 days late.... I’m laying in bed thinking why do I do this to myself... I sit on these forums and read and read in hopes to find a situation similar to mine that resulted in a baby.... but I don’t and I’m now at the point of giving up... I cannot continue to drive myself crazy. I applied for college in hopes to get my mind off having a baby and keep myself preoccupied while bettering myself.. i really don’t know what to do anymore. I’m just ready to be content and stop worrying about every little symptom, I want to be happy when I see friends post on social media that they’re pregnant... I want to go back to living a normal life.