Ugh how did this even happen. I wanted to fuck you so bad last night. It shouldn’t have happened, any of it, I should have told you to stop the first time you touched me like that. But Jesus it was so good you were so lovely.i loved having my weight on you and you pulling me even closer. I loved you grabbing my ass and telling me how soft it was. I loved talking to you for hours and hours while we cuddled and everyone else in the room slept. I loved you pressing your hard cock into my ass and pulling my hips closer to yours. I loved when you held my down and pulled my hair.

God what’s fucking wrong with me. I shouldn’t talk to you but I really really want to. I guess I’m going to run into you at work at some point or another but I want to actually see you.

Fuck I hate myself so much. I want to ask you if you’re going to talk to your girlfriend about what happened between us. I want to know if you two break up. You already said you didn’t love her anymore you just didn’t want to hurt her feelings.

I want to know if you talked to rob about it, I want to know what he thinks, I want to know if Serena heard my breathing or saw me on to of you. There were just so many times I was so so tempted to just say fuck it and take my pants off. But I’d never forgive myself.

I love him and I cant hurt him like that