Honey. My beautiful Oliver. I’m so so sorry. I just don’t even know where to begin. I don’t know what to do. I’m so confused. I’ll always love you more than anyone but I’m not sure if I can do this.

I just don’t know what to do. All this guilt is eating me alive. It kills me that I didn’t even do anything yet I still feel all this guilt. I stoped myself, I didn’t touch him, our lips never even touched... but I wanted them to so badly.

Honey I love you and I’m sorry and I don’t know what to do.