I have twin boys (almost 5years old).

Husband and I have been TTC for 4years now and finally got our BFP last week.

Last night I was crying and saying I dont want this anymore.. What's wrong with me? How could I say that if I have been wanting this for so long? I'm really scared about a second set of twins.. I cant do that again. That was the hardest year of my life! My anxiety is back with a vengeance and I am just a mess.. Am I alone? Anyone else experience this?