Proud of myself for getting out of a toxic relationship

This day two years ago (1/31/17) I got into a relationship with a guy a year above me (I was a sophomore, he was a junior) and I couldn’t be any happier. I was so in love with the thought of having a boyfriend and “finding the one”. I should’ve known from the beginning that he wasn’t good for me and it would end badly but I just wanted a boyfriend SO bad because i never had a serious one.

Him and I were two totally different people not even remotely the same or had things in common. For example, he was a HUGE pothead and sold drugs (something he didn’t tell me and I didn’t know at first). On the other hand, I didn’t smoke weed (I have before but i don’t like the affect it has on me and I don’t care to smoke it anyway) and I definitely didn’t sell drugs or anything that had to do with drugs. He hung out with the druggies and “low lives” of the school who ditch class to smoke and do drugs. I always stood far away from those people because they just weren’t people I wanted to surround and associate myself with.

But those were his friends and he wanted me to get to know them and hang out with them so of course I did. I felt EXTREMELY uncomfortable being around them, especially when he’d walk off and ignore me leaving all alone with people I didn’t know, which was something he did almost every time we hung out with them. At first, I brushed it off telling myself soon enough it won’t be so uncomfortable and awkward but it never got better so finally built up the courage to tell him. He got mad saying I was making up excuses and I just didn’t like his friends because i see myself better than them. Which wasn’t the case at all. I didn’t hate the people he hung out with or no problems with them. They were just people I couldn’t see myself hangin out with. So that caused tons of fights. It was very unfair because he expected me to hang out with him and his friends but never wanted to hang around me and my friends.

Months into the relationship, he starting being controlling. He wouldn’t let me talk to certain people and even got mad when I’d hang out with my friends instead of him. He basically wanted me all to himself and when my friends noticed that, they got mad and it would start arguments between them (one day at school he even ran up to my friend and got in her face, screaming at her). My dumbass was so blind to this because I just so badly wanted someone to love me (it wasn’t love I know but I was naive) I lost my friends at one point for a long time because I basically chose him over them.

I lost my virginity to him and after that, that was all he wanted. Every time we’d hang out he’d literally beg and whine to have sex and sometimes I gave in just to make him happy. He would get pissed and yell at me and start arguments if I didn’t want to have sex. (Idk maybe I’m a weirdo but sex isn’t everything to me.) And with him it just didn’t feel right, even if he was the first guy I had sex with. That was one of the main things we’d fight about. He’d also beg for me to smoke with him and when I told him no he’d say I’m a pussy for not smoking and again, start arguments.

Another thing was he had a lot of girl friends, like a lot. They would message him and go up to him at school and ask for hugs and stuff like that. I didn’t mind it at first because I wasn’t the jealous type. I had a couple guy friends and it’d be hypocritical of me to get mad at him so I let it slide. That was until this certain girl (who actually was one of my best friends from 5-7th grade) kept messaging him. At first it was to buy weed but then she message him to talk to him everyday. It even went as far and having nicknames on messenger. He’d reply to her sometimes quicker than he’d reply to me and hang out with her every time she asked. Then she started messaging him late at night saying she “needed him”. Of course I got upset because what else was I supposed to think? Like always, this caused a HUGE argument. He swore up and down they were strictly just friends and nothing. He told me I was psycho and jealous and made me feel crazy for even thinking something was going on between them. It was so bad that she even got involved and then there was drama with her. He eventually blocked her to “prove she didn’t mean anything to him” but I had a feeling they still hung out (mostly because they hang out with the same crowd) Every time we’d take a break he’d unblock her and talk to her again and hang out with her.

Overall, he was a toxic controlling piece of shit with anger issues. And once I got my head out of my ass and finally realized that, I left him. He got so furious he started messaging me and making fun all my insecurities and told me I was gonna fail in life and just horrible shit like that. He even went as far as messaging MY MOM talking shit to her. All because I finally left his sorry ass and realized I deserve much better. So I blocked him on everything and never talked to him again. When me or my friends would pass him in the halls at school, he’d call us basically any name in the book.

Until one day he literally made and Instagram to tell me he slept with the girl he told me not to worry about. At first I didn’t believe it because he was still pussy hurt I broke up with him so me being an idiot messaged her asking and of course it was true, so I gave him a piece of my mind and blocked him. It’s been 6 months since I’ve talked to him and I couldn’t be happier and proud of myself. I finally realized my worth and left him. It took a while but I’m glad I did it before it got worse. His pathetic ass still post about me 🤣🤣 (I know this because people send me screenshots)