please help me bro 😂

so for about three years i dated a boy. he was my best friend for four years prior and i loved him with every ounce of my soul. despite the length of our relationship, we were miserable. cheating, lying, and jealousy took over. we broke up several times, but both missed the other so much that we would get back together. we were clearly toxic for each other but couldn’t stay away. finally, we broke up and decided to stay friends bc cutting each other off wasn’t possible. but in the friendship i still felt feelings of jealousy (and intense sadness) so we stopped talking. now, a year later, i’ve dated two new guys, one i’m still with. but i still think about my ex every single day. i have dreams about him every night. i see him every where in town. is he who i’m meant to be with, or am i addicted to him? if i’m not meant to be with him, how do i get over him? i love my current boyfriend, but i can’t control my thoughts and dreams. please comment and help me!!!