Feeling like a failure.

I got mastitis 2 weeks pp and have decided to end my breastfeeding journey. I feel so guilty. I feel like a bad mom.

It took 5 days for my milk to come in and despite doing skin to skin, pumping every 2 hours for 20 minutes per side, and drinking so much water and every lactation product I could get my hands on, I was only producing .5-1 oz. And now I have mastitis.

I am so tired. I wake up every 2 hours at night to feed and burp my son. By the time I get him down and pump I only get 20 minutes of sleep before he’s up again. I just can’t do this.

I feel weak. I feel like I couldn’t birth him naturally because we had to have an emergency C-section. And now this. I feel like at this point anyone could be his mom because the one thing I have no one else does I can’t make enough of.