is this my period?Advice?please?

okay so on January 3rd, I started to bleed but the blood is very light and not dark or anything and it’s pink and not heavy, this has happened a couple months before and I noticed it has like dark spots that look like bloody skin and they are really small, and it lasted about 4-6days and on the 5th day it got like period blood and I leaked, thankfully I was home playing my video game, and I just got the same thing today. Is this my period? Or me trying to start my period? I’m wearing a regular pad right now. Any recommendations for very good leak proof pads? If this is my period I need someone to talk to about it cause I’m definitely not ready. Also it gets to where it almost stops at night and gets kinda sorta bad in the afternoon I’m just so scared to go to school and leak. I ordered some black leak proof underwear and I will still wear a pad, I just wanted them just Incase and luckily I have black uniform pants I have to wear to school. I’m only 14 and not ready. Please help me. Is it bad that I have mixed emotions about this, like I’m kinda not ready but I’m glad. I’m also having tiny cramps before this happens and headaches is this normal?