Anyone else?

I'm 38/2. At 34 they stopped preterm labor, went in with BH feeling contractions that we're 10 min apart for 2 hours. Before that I was having BH. After that I was having prodromal labor. The last few days I've been having both. I am 2cm, 70%, soft, baby's at -2 (on Jan 30 anyways). I am tired physically, mentally, emotionally. The last couple days I can't sleep more than a couple hours total no matter what, been having lightning crotch but also every movement baby makes I can feel on my cervix area, lots of pain and pressure there and also pressure in my butt. my lower back is sore since last night. I also am spotting and have very little brown mucus discharge. I had a lot of red blood etc last weekend that the doctor said was from cervix dilating, so thinking it's that because bloody show last pregnancy was a lot. If I walk around or sit up too long I get very nauseous and my stomach hurts so badly I have to take my prescription pain meds. This is baby number 4 so I was prepared for the pains to be worse, but this whole pregnancy has been different (maybe cuz it's a boy, the rest were girls)? With the preterm labor stuff and all this now Idk if I'm even going to be able to tell when to go in. With the first two I just felt nauseous and 2nd one also had diarrhea. With 3rd I had bloody show and went in to have it checked they tried sending me home after no contractions but then I walked around for an hour and had her a couple hours later. This time I've been in multiple times for bleeding and contractions already..... Im scared I won't know when to go in. With everything going on right now maybe I'm in labor now? Either way idk what to do I'm literally so frustrated and depressed etc I just wanna have this baby. I am a stay at home mom and my husband is gone all week long and so it's up to me to take care of the other 3 kids and everything idk how much more I can do it for.