I promised myself for No more TTC this year just relax and love everything I am surrounded with.

But NOOO my period never showed up since November so I am worried, stressed, angry and annoyed. I hate that ache which appear every time AF show or at the moments I am trying to be happy for others being pregnant. That annoying feeling I feel when my husband randomly put his hand on my belly, like what is he thinking at the moment? Why? And all the other annoying moments that choking me, stealing my moments.

Help! How can I be normal like I used to before all of this TTC thing. It only have been a year, I can not smile in public and cry at the moment I am alone.

I need to let it go, it is killing my joy💔.