Please no judging

Here lately I’ve been feeling like less of a woman. I was told by my doctor that it’s now or never to have kids. I’m 23 with endometriosis and my uterus is tilted. It’s emotionally tolling. Between work and life and living in a state that I don’t know anyone except my husband and in laws I seriously have no one to talk to. The days get darker and darker as the weeks go on. My husband is amazing and works nights but being here alone is making it all worst. I constantly feel alone and left in the dark. Here recently it’s gotten the best of me. I feel like if I can’t provide my husband with a child and give us that life we both really really want then why am I here? Tonight’s my darkest night in a while and I’m honestly not sure what else to do from here. Mentally I’m so exhausted that I’m ready to just shut down.