So jealous 😭

I'm so jealous of women that get to be stay at home mums. I get maternity leave until early May then I'm back working Mon-Fri. I know I'm lucky to be getting the maternity leave I am but I've always wanted to be a stay at home mum but we just can't afford it. We didn't plan the pregnancy and we were going to try to be better set up financially before having kids and I'm so sad that our only option is to send our baby to daycare, I feel like I'm letting her down because she'll be so little and she'll be spending so much time with other people 😢 I want her all to myself and feel like I'll miss out on so much..