I haven’t had a really bad outbreak like this since my first outbreak. Usually i forget i have herpes. I take my medication everyday & go on with my life, it’s doesn’t have a huge affect. But after getting this outbreak I’m taken back to how much i hate this. I’m just laying in bed searching on the internet for some type of comfort. I don’t see myself ever getting married or having kids & im trying to accept having this. I got stuck with this disease from my ex who cheated on me and it just isn’t fair how his mistakes messed up my entire life. I just don’t know why God would let something like this happen to me. No one will probably read this and that’s fine, I’m just going through a lot right now & i hate it. I wish i could rip out this virus from my body forever