Can’t seem to lose the weight

I’m really down today. It’s 69 degrees where I live when it just snowed last week. I put on my warm weather clothes and they are so incredibly tight. I haven’t felt beautiful since I was pregnant. I gained 5 pounds in 10 weeks and then my baby’s heart stopped beating. That was on Halloween...I’ve been very depressed and just eat I guess. I just need to be more motivated. I just feel so alone in this. I’m 150 and 5’2 which I’m personally not too happy about. I’d like to be back down to 130 again. I’m just struggling a lot with self esteem after the miscarriage because I gained this weight and I don’t even have a baby to show for it. I just feel hopeless honestly...