So I'm 28 weeks pregnant and very excited about my first baby. My cousins and aunts and my mom all have a group text that we like to all chat with. One of my cousins is older than me, by 10 years and she is single. I recently got married (over the summer) then got pregnant a few months later. It has never been a secret in our family that I have wanted a big family. My cousin also wants a family. She is going to try implanting soon but she had a hard time getting eggs. She only got 3 out after 6 rounds of treatment.

Last night I was joking about how my tummy got huge over the course of the day and I was wondering if there was a bonus baby in there. My aunt, my cousin mom, replied that I can kill 2 birds with one stone. My reply was that would be nice but i really want 4 or 5 kids. My cousin, who hasn't responded to much of the baby news (understandably) said it must be nice to be fertile enough for that. 😕.

I dont want to be insensitive but I also dont want to be made to feel bad about hoping for that many kids. She has said other things and during the holidays it was strange for her to treat me so poorly but I understood. This hurts my feelings so bad. I wouldn't want to trade places with her for a minute but it doesn't mean I dont have sympathy for her situation.

Now I wonder if I should stop talking to my family about my pregnancy because she will feel bad. This is the first baby in 8 years to be born in out family. The first since my grandmother died. We are a mostly female family and this is the first boy! I don't want to feel bad about being excited or being able to have children. 😔.

I love my cousin and I hope when she moves back to the east coast she lives close so we can let our babies play together.