I messed up

Heather

I dated Dalton for a year and a half we broke up in October. Had on again off again sex until December. The only reason why me and Dalton(26 years old) broke up was because he wasn’t over his ex. And I would never be anyone second choice but the sex is out of this world. Then a guy at work asked me on a date his name is Mathew and since I was single I started dating Mathew. Mathew is the most loving and unconditional person in the world would drop everything to make you happy but can’t keep an erection. He is scared that every time we have intercourse he will go so he’s explain to me countless times it’s not me it’s him. But I’m afraid he himself is not over his past relationships either as for he is 36 and I am 20 he’s had two marriages and is still obsessed with his band . I messed up and I’ve been having sex with both since January. Mathew asked me to go off birth control because we want to have kids. So I’ve been a month and a half off birth control and I relapsed and cheated again with Dalton. Dalton came inside me and then openly amid it he’s trying to get back with his ex. Meanwhile Mathew won’t even touch me...

they’re both the wrong person for me but I can’t be alone plus I might be pregnant and I don’t believe in abortions so now I’m worried on how to go about this...

Mathew (36)

Dalton (26 )