I'm 37 and hadn't really wanted kids until a year ago when I warmed up to the idea. I got pregnant this past October and was excited. But I ended up losing the baby at almost 12 weeks, right before Christmas.

Now, I'm at the stage where I can start trying again but I'm very on the fence now (like exactly in the middle of the fence). I don't seem to want a kid as much as before when we were fully trying. But I'm pretty sure I'd be excited if it did happen again.

I'm thinking of not using birth control but also not fully try (like not time everything and track my temperature etc...). And just see what happens; if it's meant to be it'll happen, if not, that's ok too. But I'm wondering if I should even try if I'm not fully 110% into it.

Ugh, anyway, just venting. I don't really have a question. But if any of you were on the fence, I'd love to hear what happened and if you are happy with having or not having a kid.