Needing words of encouragement..

I don’t wanna complain because I know there are so many women on this app who are trying to get pregnant. It’s a little blessing and I am still appreciative..

I am married. Have a fantastic loving marriage. I was usually birth control but it failed. I know having sex puts me at risk of getting pregnant regardless so please no negativity.. I get it and know how it works and am accepting the outcome.

I’m only 23 and I am due in my 2nd to last semester of college. We have no family near by at all either. I do not work and my husband makes great money and we live very comfortably. He is military though and may be getting out in 3 years. We will both need to work civilian jobs in order to make the amount he does now.. which is fine but now we have to figure this all out with a baby and I’m scared. People are telling me my social life is over. Anything concerning me will never matter. I just don’t know if I’m ready for that.. I feel like my social life hasn’t even started I’m only 23. I wanna be hot and free for a little longer lol.. idk people around me who have kids are bumming me out with their advice. We are financial stable and so is our relationship so please don’t even mention adoption and abortion is also not an option to me. I just don’t wanna lose myself and I just don’t feel ready.. i battle depression on a daily basis and I’m scared It is gonna get really bad once a baby is in the picture. Also I’m worried i am not going to be able to finish school and I’m so close.. I want a career of my own.. I know I sound selfish but I just don’t know if I’m ready to not care about myself or not have time for my relationship anything. I’m just freaking out. So if no one gives me words of encouragement at least I got to vent lol