Feel guilty for wanting a girl

We have our gender reveal on Sunday and I've always wanted a girl, especially since I'm an only child and love the relationship I have with my mom. Ive just always wanted to get the same chance she did. It's not that I would ever in my lifetime regret having a boy, I just feel guilty for really wanting a girl. I'm sure he will be a mama's boy and I'll spoil him just as much.

I've been telling myself it's a boy and coming up with things I want to do with them and names and such, enjoying things like the relationship he will hopefully have with my husband.

I'm sure once I know it'll feel so different, and it's my first kid. I'm gonna love the little mush to death regardless. I just want a healthy baby, and my rational side completely sees that. I think its just the uncertainty that's making me feel all over the place (and the hormones). I don't know.

Am I horrible for wishing for a certain gender?

Did anyone else want one over the other and what was it like when you found out.

Thanks from an illogical anxious pregnant woman