I just need to vent

Hi Everyone

I feel this is the only

Place to talk about my feelings on this topic other than my bf. About 98% of my friends and family are pregnant with kids and I feel I am the last one on the boat and it’s so hard to not want what they have. I have been trying with my bf for 2 years going on 3 and I am starting to give up hope. Watching everyone’s updates being in a stupid group message while everyone talks babies is heart breaking! I feel it’s my fault as we waited cause we were both trying to get our career going. Every month it’s heartbreaking news and someone else getting pregnant besides me. I try so hard to be positive and happy and no one really knows how much I’m hurting inside. It’s really hard to express the trouble of trying to conceive to someone that can conceive so easily. I don’t know what to do or how to keep going when every month it’s Aunt Flo. I’m tired of seeing baby pics and being that cool aunt. I want to be a mommy so bad. I’ve done so many tests which states me and my bf are healthy. I’ve started to resent my bf in this process (assuming we’re maybe not a match). I’m just heartbroken over all and as I type with tears down my face I worry this may just be my life. Childless.