It's Official!!

Just got my second hcg blood test (a week apart) back...1,300!! Our Rainbow Baby is happily cooking in my oven!

It's been a very rough year, 2 mc, 1 chemical pregnancy, My grandpa passed away, my fiance's Uncle passed away. I'd lost one baby pretty early in Sep 2017. Luckily I also met my true love in Oct of '17 also. Losing our son last June 20th was one of the hardest things I've ever had to experience. The day before we lost him I had an emergency ultrasound done due to bleeding again (diagnosed with subchorionic hemorrhage before that but it seemed to go away by the next week), our lil man was so happy & playful on the screen. Grabbing at his feet & shaking his booty. The next morning...my water broke. Nothing could be done...he was gone. I ended up having to go through 2 D&C's for that miscarriage, 17 days apart. In mid July I had the chemical pregnancy. I went through test after test to try & see why I kept losing babies. I've never been so frustrated to called/ruled "normal" in my life. No reasons as to why, nothing to...."fix." But my doc said she'd immediately put me on Progesterone once I got my BFP.

AND I GOT IT!!! I Am nervous, but I'm so much more hopeful than the last few times. I don't feel like I'm walking through a land mine field in the dark, never knowing If or When something bad might happen. I guess I feel like I've got a flashlight & a faded map so there's more hope. Weird analogy, but oh well.

We get to see our lil peanut on the 27th for our first pelvic ultrasound! I can't wait!

I decided that I'm going to be happy through this, not constantly scared & nervous outta my mind. I'm getting the yarn & knitting the baby blanket-hoodie I intended to make for my son last year.

Fear isn't going to rob this pregnancy from me.