i need advice 😫

okay so me and my boyfriend have been going out for almost two years now. however, last night he had a conversation with me telling me about these ‘moods’ he’s gets every so often. he literally said he gets them like once every few years (but strange but i mean sure). basically with these moods he begins to doubt everything, our relationship included. he sat me down and told me how he was feeling (which i appreciate). he basically told me he’s not sure about our relationship anymore, but he doesn’t want to make any rash decisions so is waiting a few months before he makes his decision. he literally said to me ‘we aren’t actually on a break but in my head we are’ and this annoyed me massively i can’t lie. he also said he is going to ‘evaluate’ every time we see each other. great let’s give me loads of pressure every time we see each other👍🏼 i’m just so confused, like he said to me ‘i’m not thinking of breaking up with you, i’m just not sure about us’ what does that even mean???? i surprisingly managed to hold myself together while i was with him, but since i’ve cried way too much. it’s like the first stage of heartbreak i just don’t know how to feel. i’m so confused and hurt. he even made a list about the positives and negatives of us breaking up ( which was the worst thing i’ve ever seen in my life btw). his positives literally included being able to get with other girls. and don’t even get me started on the negatives. they were literally: would feel bad, wouldn’t have someone to look out for me and would worry what others would think of me. nothing about missing me or regretting it, nice really feel appreciated and loved right now. honestly don’t even know if anyone will read this whole thing but i just needed to write it all out and get it off my chest. but honestly i don’t know what to do it how to feel 😞