Friend problems.

So I need some advice...

I met my best friend last year and we clicked instantly. This year we don’t have any classes together and it was going alright because we would FaceTime but now she’s just rude. I’m changing a lot (getting into indie music, have new friends, trying to stop talking bad about people, kinda getting over a guy who I had liked for a year, these are all things that will go into the story later. So first thing, I started listening to indie music and changing my style (a few months ago she told me that I shouldn’t even try dressing hipster because it wouldn’t look good on me so I didn’t because I was afraid she would judge me). Next, Ive made a bunch of new friends who make me happy and make me laugh and she does not like them at all and lets me know that. When we used to talk every day all we used to talk about were other people and now I’m trying to stop because it’s wrong and I hate it when people talk about me and when I told her that she goes “are you really?”. Another thing, so I liked this one guy for about a year (he’s 3 years older than us so it wasn’t going to go anywhere but I still really really liked him and still do a little) one day she straight up told me that I needed to get over him because it was never going to happen, which is true but you don’t say that to my face. Now there’s a new guy who I recently kinda sparked an interest in and when I told her about it she goes “ew, I have lost s much respect for you.” And I have the biggest celebrity crush on a youtuber and she told me “you’re so gross and I mean that wholeheartedly”. It’s just I thought she was supposed to be my best friend. I don’t even really want to be friends with her anymore because she makes me hate myself. But I can’t stop being friends with her because she’s just gonna go expose every weird thing I’ve ever said. I feel like I’m never going to find someone who really understands me and isn’t going to be rude to me. A few weeks ago we had a fight because she didn’t like a joke I made. I just want out but I don’t think I can.

If you made it to the end, thank you.