So I’ve dated this guy for five years we have great times and bad times. A problem I have are his lies. Each time I catch him in a lie he promises to do better then later down the road I find out that he’s lied/kept things again. This has been going on for five years and again he says that he’s trying to do better but I just found out that there was something he didn’t tell me yet again apparently it was months ago but how do I believe him when this pattern keeps happening? He gets frustrated and mad really easily because I don’t trust him but him treating me like that when he’s already on thin ice just makes me believe he can’t change. But in my heart I want to live the rest of my life with him, travel, get married... but I feel like a fool whenever I give him another chance and all he did was ruin it. It’s hard to trust my gut. And at this point I don’t know if I should leave or stay.... I’ve been dating him since my freshman year of high school. I do love him. And I’m not saying that I’m perfect either but I need advice. Because a part of me wants to keep working on things... is that crazy? Is this a waste of my time, will this cycle keep happening? I’m at a loss.. usually I would post anon whenever I would come here to talk about him but this time I’m serious so my name is there... if anyone wants to chat with me because I need support, thank you to anyone who reads this.

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I can’t imagine a life without him in it but background I do have high anxieties especially when this topic comes up, am I over reacting?