I'm 16 weeks 6 days with my 2nd baby and I'm an emotional wreck!

I lost my mum in April 2018 to lung cancer 19 days after she was diagnosed.

A month before her diagnosis she was dancing and laughing at a party without a care in the world. She's had a cough but had been diagnosed with COPD 5 years previously and thought it was related to that.

She went to the Dr who gave her steroids and after a week was told her chest sounded clear. She got weaker and weaker and starred getting pain in her shoulder so went back to the Drs who did bloods and found out she had hypercalcemia. She was rushed to hospital at 3am and immediately put on a drip to remove the excess calcium in her blood.

They ran all their test and 2 days later she was diagnosed with non small cell lung cancer that had spread from 1 lung to the other, to her liver, her kidneys, her lymph nodes, her bones and her brain without more than a cough as a symptom.

19 days later she died in a hospice.

She was 48 years old.

I don't really know why I'm posting this I have so much support from my husband and my family but I just feel I can't do this pregnancy without her.

She was my rock throughout my first pregnancy and the first 18 months of my daughter's life and I especially needed her whilst in labour and the thought of doing it all again without her there is killing me.

I miss her so much.