I want to give up

This is my first week checking my blood sugar levels. I am so frustrated, please tell me I'm not alone.

I have the hardest time getting enough blood to fill and complete the test strip. I have the needle turned to the highest setting and I literally just sat down and attempted to fill and complete a test strip for 30 minutes and I had to finally stop because it's obviously too late to keep testing and I now have to wait until the 2 hour mark.

Is anyone else having this problem? I want to give up. The tiniest amount of blood comes out and I work so hard to massage the skin to get more blood to come out but it's so hard to get enough out. I have been using multiple fingers FYI and holding it very firmly against the skin.