It’s back again..

My life is everything I’ve ever wanted. I am gonna marry the love of my life and I am having his child in July. But my thoughts are in my head again. I’m feeling so sad. Feeling like I want to cut again. I’ve been done with that for three years. But now I’m alone at home just thinking about nothing. Feeling so alone and sad. I guess this could be a minor depression act that’s happening again? I’m not sure and I don’t talk to anyone about it because no one understands. “I have everything anyone could ask for” my man is the best thing that has happened to be. He’s saved me from drinking and drugs. This baby is all I prayed for. Why do I feel so alone and sad again?