So I recently went through my first break up. I really didn’t think I was in that deep but I guess I was. I’m having a hard time and i don’t like it. Anywho the breakup is not the issue. I know it was for the best and I know i deserve better. Well I have amazing friends who have been there for me since it happened. They’ve let me talk their ears off and just be vulnerable with them. Well I know it’s only been a little over a week but I feel so bad that I’m putting them through this. I know this is what friends for and I know they don’t care and they don’t mind being there. I just hate that I am calling and texting them about how much this sucks. I hate that I just can’t get over this. I miss him! I miss the day to day friend! that I miss the person I would talk sports too. I miss the person I would talk to all day about anything and everything. I just miss it! I love my friends for being there and I know when I get over this ill be even more grateful for them. My best friend said I’ve done it for them so now it’s time my turn to lean on them. I’m the kind of friend that’s there no matter what and it never phases me. Idc if they cry for months so why do I feel like I’m a burden on them? Why can’t I just let this play out and why do I have to try and control everything!