I found out I have hsv 1 genitalia in January after having 2 flare ups, first being in September and second in January, I now am having my third.

I have only been with two people. First one, we were both virgins. Now with my husband since 2007. Never cheated on him and don't believe he's ever cheated either. I believe he got it from his ex a long time ago from blowjobs (she always had cold sores). We notice blisters on his penis but didnt think anything about it being herpes, just thought it was chaffing from jiu jitsu or work. So I think he got it from her long ago, then we had sex while he was having a flare up and now I have it.

I have felt so defeated and disgusting. I contemplated jumping out of the car due to how much pain I was in. But let me tell you what had helped. There is this stuff called alocane it has 4% lidocaine in it and it has done wonders. But the best help by far is weed. No joke I had never smoked it but the pain was so unbearable I was willing to try anything and oh my goodness. It instantly seemed like the swelling went away and I could walk normally again. It is truly amazing how fast it helped. My mind was blown, no pun intended.