So I feel like recently everything in life has been going in not such a good way. I’m having a tough time and it sucks. Between work and family. Well I ended things with my fwb. We went a week without talking and it sucked. So we’re working on repairing our friendship and only that. He is a very passive person. Not a lot of things get to him and I’m the opposite. He doesn’t understand why I let things get to me cuz things don’t get to him. Well we’ve been talking about the rules of our friendship and he was like we can be the same without the sex. I agreed and said well let’s see how this goes. Well yesterday I found the gym I go to is probably gonna close and now I feel like I have no where to let he stress of life go. I know I shouldn’t throw the benefits back into but I just want a distraction and want to feel something again. I know we’ll never be more and I know he can’t give me what I want. But for months having him the way I had him was nice. There was no one else and he didn’t miss treat me. He just doesn’t want to be tied down right now. I want the relationship more than I want him. That’s how I know he isn’t the one. But right now I’m so close to giving in. Just to feel something that isn’t sad.