Ok.

Not really sure how to word this so bear with me.

Basically I'm 28 weeks pregnant with baby #2 and I'm terrified of post partum psychosis.

With my first I didn't sleep because I needed to hold her constantly incase someone (including my partner, who is her dad) took her. Which I was so certain they would if i wasn't paying full attention. The paranoia was on another level.

I had it in my head she was an angel, I knew I was the only one who could see her wings and halo but at the time I thought it was a connection we had. God was testing me.

In the day I really struggled. I couldn't even look at her I just did what I needed to keep her alive. Fed her ect. Locked the doors and kept the world out so we could be safe.

There's so much more that my memory has chose to block out too. I remember it being the worst ever thing I've ever experienced and I've been through some shit.

I didn't ever go into the full extent of it with anyone though, I passed it off as postpartum depression and got some pills which helped. I never needed to give all the details and my partner isn't clued up on mental health he didn't realise how serious my condition was.

Only this time it could all happen again and I dont know how to prevent it.

If i can prevent it?

Anyone with any experience please chime in and help out.