What I’m craving tonight...

It is 1:54 am and I’ve just finished masturbating and I’ve realized it’s not an orgasm I wanted but rather INTIMACY is what I’ve been craving, and the sad part is that I have a man, and he is sound asleep right beside me. I just don’t know what to do anymore. All he ever wants to do is just stick it in me, last for 2 mins and then he rolls over, and I find it odd that’s it always while I’m sleeping. And believe me I’ve tried talking to him about this on numerous occasions!! He keeps blaming it on me and saying how I’m the one refraining from sex and I’ve told him straight up that it’s cuz I end up more mad and hurt at the fact at how it’s always done. As a man, you get turned on more quickly and you’re pretty much always guaranteed to cum but as a woman, it’s a bit more work. I need to be touched, kissed, caressed, SOMETHING!! And then he tries to flip it the other way by saying “well how come you don’t suck my dick anymore?” And I’ve told him that it’s cuz he doesn’t eat me out or anything and he only wants to be pleased but never pleases me! I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. We’ve been in a relationship for 5 1/2 years and still nothing’s changed. I already have low self esteem as it is and honestly this just makes me feel worse. Somebody, please help...