Mixed emotions; second pregnancy with uninvolved father

So I’m having so many emotions going on right now...I have a beautiful 14month old that is my 🌈 baby... the pregnancy with her was rough and being with and around her father always made things worse. Very toxic relationship verbally and physically abusive and I made the mistake of letting him come back in my life and yet again he was unfaithful...I’m attempting to move and and recently found out I may be pregnant again 5weeks...my family is very judgmental and I’m feeling ashamed of my second pregnancy...I really have no one else to talk to and just wanted to vent...