Today is a hard day for me. 1 year ago I almost lost my husband due to a brain bleed from a car accident. I am very thankful/blessed that he is alive i dont know what i would have done if i lost him. I've been with this man for over 10 years he is my person. Today is also the due date of our angel baby, I lost the baby at 12 weeks in late August 2018. I also started my period today. I am full of different emotions. Just wanna lay in bed and try not to dig myself in a deep emotional hole. We have been ttc our rainbow baby and it doesnt seem to want to happen. I dont know how long after a miscarriage i can conceive again.. Gahhhh so many feelings and thoughts.