I do everything for myself and by myself. I went to college out of state to escape from my past, but I can't get over it. I thought love would make me feel better. Found a guy I could be myself with, liked the same things. It was like I found my twin. I let my thoughts get the best of me. I work 40+ hours, have two jobs, and making just enough to cover school bills, but work is also making it hard to dedicate my time towards school. After I broke up with the guy, I felt so empty because I wanted to feel something good but couldn't. I don't think I can. Said I was going to focus on myself only to find myself losing my vCard to a stranger. I felt nothing be numbness. I don't want to care about things anymore. I cry everyday. I feel like I should drop out but I don't want to go back home. My depression and anxiety is getting bad. I'm always tried, food isn't good, I only eat when I have to, I don't want to be around people. I look out my window at night and I see how the world carries on. I wish I could give up. I think about it a lot.