So I recently escaped from my abuser and now my period is 6 days late. I already have 2 children I care for that are not his and I honest can’t bring my self to kill another child I have done so twice in my lifetime I’ll be 30 in April. I can’t raise 3 kids on my own its hard enough with 2 children and I don’t get welfare assistance that’s never been my thing. So my decision is doing open adoption. I have done this when I was 19 and he’s grown so well I love my sons adoptive parents and sister when I picked them I knew soon as I saw them this was the family I choose and they where the 7th family I had met with. So this time around I feel it will be a positive outcome. The only thing I fear are my kids reaction when I don’t come home with a baby when the time comes. My son is 5 and my daughter is 3. Now when I had her he knew I was pregnant always run my belly talking to her etc. I think they will be heart broken that’s the only thing I’m scared about