STM here.

I’m only 36+2. But all I’ve been talking about this week is how I want this baby to be here. I’m big and uncomfortable and I feel like I’m soo close yet so far away from meeting him. I’m watching all of our group friends have their baby and I’m so envious! I wanted to be the one heading in to have my boy! I’ve been dreaming about his birth for the past few nights. I could feel it will be happening soon!

Then today I’ve been having some teeny tiny baby contractions. They have been off and on all day. They haven’t gotten more intense and they aren’t at all consistent so I’m sure it’s just Braxton Hicks, but the thought of actually having him today stopped me in my tracks!

Maybe I’m NOT ready! I still have things to wrap up at work before leave, our bags aren’t packed, the car seat isn’t installed, my daughter might not be ready for her brother to arrive, I haven’t made any freezer meals or padsicles. I haven’t washed or sterilized the pump or the bottles or all of his clothes! My mom is at a basketball game and my MIL is out of state visiting family. I don’t even have a single newborn diaper in the house!

Today brought me back down to earth a little bit. Please don’t come today, baby. This mama needs a little more time ❤️❤️