I’ve posted a lot lately, from my announcement to some questions. I told everyone how this pregnancy was a gift from my mother after she passed the day after Christmas. I feel stupid for believing I was finally going to be a mother. My baby’s heart wasn’t pumping strong enough, so they warned me of a miscarriage. I held tight and prayed. My ultrasound yesterday revealed that my baby stopped growing and the heart stopped beating. My little one has joined Jesus... I am so broken hearted. I really believed after so long of trying that it was finally our turn. I lost my mother and my baby. How do I cope? We opted out of a dnc to let the baby pass naturally. But I hate sitting around waiting. It’s torture. Not knowing when or how.. I feel lost. I’m actually scared to even show who I am.. I am fighting everyday to find the reason to why this is all happening. I just want to make sense of it.