Im asking you ladies please not judge me .

Basically me and my husband of 11 years broke up last september i broke it off. Id been unhappy for years l. We have children together and id stayed for them. He never worked i did very long hours.

Anyways to cut a long story short i decided as everythink was in his name i would move out and it was a tough few months as i moved 10 minutes walk away but i was without my children that i missed so much. I was suffering from a mental break down .

I ended up going on a dating app for people to talk to more to furfill the lonliness .

And i met a lovley guy from there who lived juat iver 100 miles away.

I knew i could never have a realationship with him due to the children as my heart is here with them. And mentally i wasnt fit to get into another rship.

And peer pressure from family n friends i ended up moving back in with mh husband and trying to renight the spark .and same time see my children which i have enjoyed.

Truth is feeling for my husband havnt changed and i cant stop thinking about the other guy . In 6 months i have fallen in love with him we connect on so many levels. We still speak but not as much he says he loves me to and still wants me.

I just dont kno what to do anymore. I feel like if i left her my husband would struggle with the children n paying the bills and if i took them id have to give up my job which i wouldnt have a problem doing but then i wouldnt want to live on benefits. And they wouldnt want to live with me anyway well my boys wouldnt they are all there dad.

Ny heart feels torn and deep down its with the other guy what do i do

I feel like i shpuld always be thinking about the kids and putting them first why i moved back in . But same.time.ive been lonley for so long. I feel trapped here. I love my children but i know they wouldnt live with me and if i took them my husband would be devastated. He is a great man a family man and i do love him but i feel like we are just friends .

Do i stay here for the kids and force my marriage to work or do i see if there is anythink with the other guy.

Im sorry you must all think how stupid do i sound. I guess i cant ask friends or family cuz they dont see it my way . They are all happy in rships and love my partner or are old fashioned and belive in marriage vows .

I guess i look at my own parents n dont want to end up like them as much as i love them . My parents stayed together for the kids. There both in 70s now sleep in diffrent beds and barley talk to eachother. Yet they want me to do the same